One Month and Counting...

i heard from the program today. i'll be flying into nashville on sunday, march 8th. it's fine for me to stay in the home with the girls (which is a HUGE relief) so that i'm able to have accountability while i'm getting the intense counseling i'll be getting. i'll be flying back to albany on friday afternoon/evening (march 13th). i'll be participating in a lot of the activities that the girls do in the morning (Bible reading, classes), but my afternoons will be devoted to the one-on-one counseling. i'll be participating in the evening activities with the girls, as well. i was asked what, specifically, i wanted to work on, and i said that, basically, everything that's going on in my life right now is a result of what happened to me as a child. the abuse happened, and things just piled on top of it because i didn't deal with the abuse for 22 years. when i got to this program five years ago (i can't believe it's been that long!) and told them about the abuse, i didn't talk much about it after that. so i got it out there, and that was it. i honestly feel that, once the abuse is dealt with and processed, a lot of what i'm dealing with now (the eating disorder, cutting, self-esteem stuff, etc) will lessen or disappear entirely. and that would be AMAZING. on march 12th, i'll be meeting with the director of transitional program to discuss plans for when i get home and stuff like that. and then i fly home the next day.

so this is happening!! and i'm scared... PRAY FOR ME!!!