Little Girl Lost - MAY TRIGGER

Little Girl Lost

Ali Davis

Little girl lost,

never to be found.

She never speaks;

not a sound.

All her pain

she holds inside.

She wants so desperately to talk,

but she must remain quiet and hide.

She used to be an outgoing 4-year-old;

bubbly, daring and care-free.

Now she wants to be someone

that no one can hear or see.

He told her, again and again,

that she must not make a sound.

He took that vibrant little girl spirit

and buried it in the ground.

She grew into a teenager, but very much a hurting little girl inside.

Ever worsening depression and self-hatred set in.

Anorexia, bulimia, cutting and drinking

were only the beginning of the sin.

Adulthood came, and with it,

rehab, suicide attempts and casual sex with random men.

Still bulimic, depressed and still cutting, too...

When would the torment end?

Thirty-seven inpatient psychiatric hospitalization

from age nineteen and thirty.

I don't want to do this anymore...

I don't want to be hurting!

Little girl lost...

Will she ever be found?

Will there come a day

when she will once again make a joyful sound?

Little girl lost;

can she move past years of SHAME and PAIN?
Can she move on and learn to trust God,

and others,

and HERSELF,

and learn to live again?

-January 11, 2009